Peanut Peanut Butter

I will just start by saying this is not one of my children or do I know this child however I felt like this picture best described my love for peanut butter.

I have always had a wonderful relationship with peanut butter. I imagine it was love at first sight and our relationship has grown over the years. My favorite peanut butter meal is a spoonful of peanut butter topped with a few (hahaha) chocolate chips. Yummy. That was my regular monthly bindge growing up. I never got quite as into the jar as this little baby but I can relate.

I have been very limited to the amount of peanut butter I can have lately because it affects my blood sugar but I can't help but have a bit here and there....ok daily. However I have been trying to keep my consumption low and pair it with something a bit more nutritionally sound.

Oh how I love you peanut butter.

This Is What We Call Spring

As Linkin said the other day "May comes in as a lion and leaves as a lamb". It was been so beautiful the past week. Windows open, sun shinning, birds flying, it has just be so beautiful. My fondest memories of my childhood where the times we spent outside playing and playing. We were blessed with a big yard and lots of built in friends, my siblings, plus my mom did daycare so we were set. I remember running in the sprinklers, slip and sliding, climbing the trees and just having so much fun being a kid!

Today the kids got a chance to play out side in the sprinklers and soak up the sun. It brought back a lot of memories for me. So fun!

Off Work

As seen in my previous blog I have a rash I have been dealing with. I know it isn't the best topic to write on but my mind if full and I need to get out some thoughts. Turns out the "mild but intensely itch" rash I had with my other two children has returned with this pregnancy but has come on with a vengeance and is actually a rare autoimmune disorder called pemphigoid gestationis. In just a matter of days it gotten a bit out of hand. What started as a red itchy belly has turned in to a full body nightmare.

I have been in an out of various doctors offices. Since it is rare "pregnancy disease" it has been a new adventure for most doctors I have seen. My first visit to my OBG regarding the rash I was told I also had gestational diabetes. I actually almost laughted at the doctor when he told me this because I didn't have it with my other two and figured they must have gotten me confused with someone else. Turns out after another test that I do in fact have it. However gestational diabetes is well know in the world of OBG's so it was not big thing, I can monitor it with my eating and should be fine. However when you have pemphigoid gestationis the treatment is steriods and one of the side effects of the steriods is an increase in blood sugar levels. As the high risk doctors said "This would only effect you if you had GD" Me, laughing out of sheer disbelief "I do have it actually." I didn't have it with my other two why, why all of this in one pregnancy? So, most likely I will begin insulin on Friday after they get an idea of where my blood sugar is once I have a full day on the steriods.

So what does this all mean? I will be closely monitored by the diabetes center and my OBG. Off work until delivery. I will have non-stress tests done twice a week, a few more ultra sounds to monitor the baby and most likely and early delivery. Hopefully my body will be helpful and respond to the different medications and work with me on this.

What else does this mean? I am not a fan of being in public. I am tired from lack of sleep. The itching is horrible and sends me into meltdowns regularly.

I am not looking for sympathy just typing out my thoughts about the whole situation. Just praying God will guide me through these next few weeks with safety and peace of mind.

The Rash

Lately my life has been consumed by CVS Pharmacy. Standing in the store walking up and down the isles trying to decide what cream or spray I should buy today. To date I haven't found the perfect cream.

I saw the doctor yesterday and the rash I have is called "PUPPPs Disease". There is no real explanation for it, no cure other than delivery and luckily no harm other than sleepless nights of itching and scratching.

It is one ugly rash.

I had it with my other to kids as well however this time it has started much earlier and has come on much stronger than before.

Anyway, not too many details as it is a yucky, ugly rash but I am anxiously awaiting my "Grandpa's Pine Tar Soap". Supposed to work wonders. I won't hold my breath....but I'll be hopeful.